Missing

my pal, the pooch more than ever tonight.

See when I cant think straight, concentrate, when life smacks me around the head for no good reason and I dont see it coming I always had an escape and that was a walk with the pooch. Come rain or shine, snow or howling gales, we could throw our jackets on and go for a walk.

The fresh air, rain, wind, snow would help clear my mind and let things mull around until they were clear, decisive and I knew what I needed to do. Now that doesnt happen anymore and it would look rather strange a woman out walking late at night, so no walking for me.

Consequently my mind is like a box of scrambled eggs screaming at me to hide, switch it off and yet I can't. I damn well wish I could.

For none pooch lovers this will seem stupid but there really is a huge hole left without her. No that doesnt mean I am gonna get another, neither are the kids, any time soon. It just means I miss my companion.

Havent felt like this in a few weeks and I guess tonight having been hurt by a few things, then upset by a problem with a relative and not being able to concentrate on editing it walloped me.

I need a new escape ! and fast

Old values

What is wrong in this world today where a person walking down the street, minding their own business is shoved out of the way by a person walking behind them. Why? because the front person walked slower.

Then the provocotour showers the first person with so much abuse that person is near enough reduced to tears. Now if it had been a crowded street, maybe they had an excuse but a wide, and I do mean wide pedestrian precinct, almost empty bar a few people is no excuse.

And to do it from behind, blindsiding the person is unforgiveable but thats the age we live in.

An age where no one stands on a bus if its full and a young woman or older is standing for the whole journey. Where old dears think they have more priority to get on a bus than a young mum carrying bags and a child.

 

Is that really how rude society has become ??

 

We teach our kids to be poilte, say their pleases and thank yous, to be respectful of their elders, helpful to their elders, helpful to their neighbours. We tell them to do their best, try hard and great things will happen for them.

 

We teach them to never break promises, make their words match their actions and they will go far. Their friends will find them trustworthy, my word is my bond and so on...

 

But why these days is it that this kind of person is in the minority??

 

Its all too easy for people to just go F*** You and do what they want, put themselves first irrespective of the damage it causes, the promises they break, or the damage being shoved out of the way does to a person. Being physically man handled is as bad as being let down, or someone being rude towards you.

 

Maybe I just expect high standards too much. If I do it, then I expect others to do it also and I'm dissapointed when they dont. Now before people jump on the band wagon, its not all youngsters. Ive witness the same kind of rude behaviour by middle aged folks, and pensioners. Its not an age thing its a society. Pretty much proof that this big society stuff doesnt work in wider circles.

 

Okay rant over LOL and the person who was shoved out of the way, well she shrugged it off but is there any physical damage... well its too early to tell Im still too sore and stiff to tell !! 

  

New Book and New Beginnigs

Yesterday I published my fourth novel "Left Behind." Its been a long time coming - a story thats been in development and been through multipe changes since 2005.

I recently stored the latest copy onto memory stick and discovered all the previous versions, fifteen of them LOL.The general idea for the story hasnt changed, most plot details havent but there is a big difference between tthe first and last version.

Its interesting to look back and see how far as writer  you have come. Even just a quick read of the first chapter shows the different styles, word choice and the overall writing.

Yesterday was the perfect day to publish it, its 2nd part will be out towards the end of december, again on the perfect day for that story. Yesterday was also my birthday and I really dont like birthdays. I love everyone elses but not mine. However yesterday was actually really nice and I felt spoiled, special and well it was a great day - So thanks to my kids and Jo xx

Argh

Why is it that when you are desperate for a long lie (a lie in) you wake up at the crack of dawn, wide eyed and busy tailed? Yet waking at practically the same time for the previous 5 days has you yawning by 8am and wishing the day away...

One of lifes mysteries !!

So here I am wide awake, early o'clock and wondering what to do first. I have an action packed day ahead - shopping, football, editing (dread the word) and maybe even a bit of socialising...maybe, maybe not lol

And its tough deciding what to do first .... but I think coffee and breakfast then I will take it as it comes. Fingers crossed by the end of today it will just be formatting left and a final check ....

Everyone cross ur fingers !!

So much to learn part 2

This evening Ive been working on a final edit of "Left Behind" and I am nearly there. Just my edits, a few beta reader suggestions and glue words left to look at. Another few days and woo hoo

I've run through all the usual things I look for passive verbs, grammar, sentances I dont like etc. Now I get to learn about abstract words, overused words, vague words, redundant words, style reports, hidden verbs, glue sentances, repetative words, sentance length...

Each one of these has been looked at, modified, updated, changed, re written and its all helped me to shed a few thousand words and I'm not done yet. I can only hope that the end product sits well in its chosen place.

Its been a very steep learning curve but one I'm glad ive taken a strangle hold on. It will stand me in good stead for the second of the two books as I press forward.

Look out for release info ! - Kindle will be Sept 20th